[ Still, there's an unexpected little flitter in his heart when Blue says that, you can know all you wish. Not that he hasn't been forthcoming about things when Yzak gets nosy curious, but ... hearing it like this feels like an offer of some sort of full on soul-bearing shit. And that just feels like a lot to someone like Yzak, who at this point, is absolutely enamored with Blue. ]
You said synthetic whiskey? How strong is something like that?
...Mn. Right. Alcohol...alters people's states of mind. [he shakes his head.] The drinks we had on Shangri-La don't do that. [a beat. thoughtfully:] I haven't...tried anything that wasn't synthetic. Of that type, actually...
[ At that, he brings his cup back up to take a longer drink from it. ]
It's just as well, I guess. That stuff does alter your state of mind, so even I don't bother with it much. At least, never enough if I know I might need to be at full attention at a moment's notice!
[ Giving Blue a once over. ] And I'd imagine it wouldn't take very much to affect you. [ Lightweight would be an understatement. ]
I... [ A pause. ] I don't know! I can have a couple of the stronger things just fine. Like the other day, when I ran into Newton. [ And honestly considering their conversation that evening, he wishes he could have gotten so fucked up to have forgotten some of that. ]
But as it stands, I'm usually too busy to allow myself to ever test the theory - not that I'm that interested in doing so, anyway. Even on the station, I'm never sure how long downtime is going to last, so I don't want to risk not being in the right shape to properly focus.
A fair warning would be nice. But ... sure, that sounds fine if the opportunity presents itself.
[ Yzak considers a couple of things in silence after that agreement (future plans!! almost sounds like a date!! what the hell! who gets excited about that even!!), not exactly wanting to drag the conversation down. But ... it's still a good idea to at least mention it.
So taking one more sip of his tea to finish it off, Yzak leans over to place the empty cup on the nightstand before scooting back a little to lean against the wall. ]
Just keep in mind, too much of that shit can mess with even the most iron-clad of stomachs. [ And, well, u know. Blue and keeping things down properly. The fact that his wilting little ass weighs like 3lbs also.
But beyond that warning, as if Yzak's in any position to tell Blue what to do. ]
Mn. [Blue doesn't seem to deflate; he didn't really make the offer with too much brightness and excitement in the first place! he's the one with the weak constitution, after all.] Maybe just...a small taste, then.
[he smirks faintly over at Yzak.] You finish the rest for me.
[ Leave the excitement to Yzak. Even if he's not showing it outwardly, any little reach out like that does it for him. Something normal and casual to look forward to, he was never aware it would feel so ... nice.
So much so, that as if by a chain reaction, his own lips can't help but quirk up slightly. ]
I can do that easily...!
[ He smooths a hand over his own (soft, pink) nightwear, tilting his head back against the wall. ]
But as always, I'll trust your best judgment for your limits for yourself.
It's generous of you...to not admonish me in advance. [though he imagines he can expect it, should he push himself a bit too much just for the sake of trying.]
I see... [Blue has another sip, trying to imagine the tea having any bite at all. it's kind of hard to, when the most 'bite' anything's had is perhaps a bit too much spice or sugar.
after a little moment of rumination, he hands the cup out to Yzak to return it to the nightstand - he's drank as much as he's comfortable drinking.]
I'll be careful. But even if I do reach a new limit...I suppose I'll allow an 'I told you so.' Just one.
There's some array of drinks back on the station. I'm not sure what, but for the sake of what you've already tried and possibly have some taste for, hopefully some sort of whiskey.
[ He doesn't have to really move from where he is, reaching his arm out to take the offered cup, and then tilting himself just enough to stretch and place it gently on the nightstand next to his own empty one.
Yzak gives him a wry look, when he says that. ] You suppose you'll allow it, huh? [ That's followed by a sarcastic little huff. Who said he could tell Yzak what to do!!!! ]
[while Yzak's setting the cup down, Blue scoots in to settle at his side, which gives him a great view of that expression of his. it makes his eyes crinkle with some mirth, though his smile stays subdued.]
Just one, I said. [he gently bumps his nose against his cheek before kissing it.] One is enough, I think.
And who said I'll adhere to that! [ Not so much of a tough-guy declaration when he's flushing at the action. ]
I'm not really a drink connoisseur or anything, but I still know enough. I won't even need one I told you so! You'll be with me, so it'll be just fine!
[ He wouldn't dare allow Blue to turn into a sloppy drunk bitch. ]
I know. [he rests his temple against Yzak's, a chuckle in his breath.] I'm not worried a bit.
[why should he? Yzak's done nothing but look after him so well all this time; even without reading that mind next to him, Blue knows he can trust him.]
[ Yzak lets out one of those soft grumbles in his throat that is clearly fond.
And even if that nuance wasn't easily picked up on, the way he lets his own head rest against Blue's would make up for it.
The laugh in Blue's tone, the mirth in his expression, they allow Yzak to calm since it means he's feeling less rattled than he was just earlier from whatever plagued his dreams. ]
Good to see you're amused, now, instead of upset.
[ The slight edge of sarcasm disappears when he finishes saying that, putting that relieved feeling into words as best he can manage. ]
[after a gentle, affirmative sound:] Because of you. Thank you...for helping ground me. [he seeks out one of his hands to thread fingers through with his own.] I'd be lost otherwise.
... I know how it is, so it's no problem. Lucky, that I wasn't busy or away, tonight!
[ Blue says that outloud, and when those fingers lace between his, Yzak hears his voice echo in his mind, memory of his words from earlier; you should bind them together. So neither gets lost.
He looks down at their hands thoughtfully. Jeez, what a sappy thing to recall at a moment like this. He feels himself go redder, because even with Blue's psionics down and him unable to read the thought, which would have saved Yzak from the embarrassment, he still essentially causes it for himself anyway. ]
[Blue can't help but smile, but for Yzak's sake, he closes his eyes, feigning a bit of ignorance just to relish the moment. there's things to be said about this, about him, but it has to wait. wait until they're a bit safer, removed from the hazards of this planet.
all the same, he squeezes at Yzak's hand - a silent declaration of those things unsaid.]
[ He'll be more at ease, too, once they're out of here. If mainly for Blue's sake - it's as he said earlier, sure this place is affecting him as it is everyone, it kind of sucks! But for Blue to be so constantly in it when his psionics are working ... he can only imagine how much more of a weight it feels like. One that Yzak himself can only do so much for - if he's here and not underground working with the army in the first place.
He sends a side glance to Blue when he feels that squeeze to his hand. ]
I hope the tea helped, too...! Was that blend to your liking?
It was nice. [the contented smile remains.] This...is nice. Despite the quiet. [he may not feel a hundred percent himself in such a state, but he does feel safe with Yzak on alert.]
I'll see if I can get some more, before we leave this place. Since the plants it was made from aren't anything I've ever heard of before! But it is pretty good.
If I can't, I at least have similar blends back on the station.
[ He doesn't move - if anything, he can at most, perhaps briefly nod off like this, if he gets too comfortable. But in the meantime, he can't help but agree, this is nice. ]
And it's not so much the fact that what you can feel here is so strongly negative that it can cause you such turmoil even in your sleep, but rather that even being free of that temporarily ... is its own form of turmoil in itself. Is that right?
[ So while Yzak assumes Blue would rather not have to deal with losing his sense at all, even briefly, both situations right now seem to have their pros and cons, given what kind of place they're in. ]
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[ Still, there's an unexpected little flitter in his heart when Blue says that, you can know all you wish. Not that he hasn't been forthcoming about things when Yzak gets
nosycurious, but ... hearing it like this feels like an offer of some sort of full on soul-bearing shit. And that just feels like a lot to someone like Yzak, who at this point, is absolutely enamored with Blue. ]You said synthetic whiskey? How strong is something like that?
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...Mn. Right. Alcohol...alters people's states of mind. [he shakes his head.] The drinks we had on Shangri-La don't do that. [a beat. thoughtfully:] I haven't...tried anything that wasn't synthetic. Of that type, actually...
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[ At that, he brings his cup back up to take a longer drink from it. ]
It's just as well, I guess. That stuff does alter your state of mind, so even I don't bother with it much. At least, never enough if I know I might need to be at full attention at a moment's notice!
[ Giving Blue a once over. ] And I'd imagine it wouldn't take very much to affect you. [ Lightweight would be an understatement. ]
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(by Coordinator standards, probably, actually) ]
I... [ A pause. ] I don't know! I can have a couple of the stronger things just fine. Like the other day, when I ran into Newton. [ And honestly considering their conversation that evening, he wishes he could have gotten so fucked up to have forgotten some of that. ]
But as it stands, I'm usually too busy to allow myself to ever test the theory - not that I'm that interested in doing so, anyway. Even on the station, I'm never sure how long downtime is going to last, so I don't want to risk not being in the right shape to properly focus.
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Perhaps...we'll get fairer warning. Next time. And you and I can share a drink like that.
I think it'd be nice...at least once. Just to try. [even if it's a bad taste, at least Blue could say he tried.]
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[ Yzak considers a couple of things in silence after that agreement (future plans!! almost sounds like a date!! what the hell! who gets excited about that even!!), not exactly wanting to drag the conversation down. But ... it's still a good idea to at least mention it.
So taking one more sip of his tea to finish it off, Yzak leans over to place the empty cup on the nightstand before scooting back a little to lean against the wall. ]
Just keep in mind, too much of that shit can mess with even the most iron-clad of stomachs. [ And, well, u know. Blue and keeping things down properly. The fact that his wilting little ass weighs like 3lbs also.
But beyond that warning, as if Yzak's in any position to tell Blue what to do. ]
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[he smirks faintly over at Yzak.] You finish the rest for me.
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So much so, that as if by a chain reaction, his own lips can't help but quirk up slightly. ]
I can do that easily...!
[ He smooths a hand over his own (soft, pink) nightwear, tilting his head back against the wall. ]
But as always, I'll trust your best judgment for your limits for yourself.
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[ Not AGAIN, PLEASE. ]
That's a generous bar, I think!
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[ And then there's that whole drinking on an empty stomach thing,,, ]
If you like whiskey, the real stuff is pretty strong compared to a lot of other kinds of alcohol.
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after a little moment of rumination, he hands the cup out to Yzak to return it to the nightstand - he's drank as much as he's comfortable drinking.]
I'll be careful. But even if I do reach a new limit...I suppose I'll allow an 'I told you so.' Just one.
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[ He doesn't have to really move from where he is, reaching his arm out to take the offered cup, and then tilting himself just enough to stretch and place it gently on the nightstand next to his own empty one.
Yzak gives him a wry look, when he says that. ] You suppose you'll allow it, huh? [ That's followed by a sarcastic little huff. Who said he could tell Yzak what to do!!!! ]
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Just one, I said. [he gently bumps his nose against his cheek before kissing it.] One is enough, I think.
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I'm not really a drink connoisseur or anything, but I still know enough. I won't even need one I told you so! You'll be with me, so it'll be just fine!
[ He wouldn't dare allow Blue to turn into a sloppy drunk bitch. ]
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[why should he? Yzak's done nothing but look after him so well all this time; even without reading that mind next to him, Blue knows he can trust him.]
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And even if that nuance wasn't easily picked up on, the way he lets his own head rest against Blue's would make up for it.
The laugh in Blue's tone, the mirth in his expression, they allow Yzak to calm since it means he's feeling less rattled than he was just earlier from whatever plagued his dreams. ]
Good to see you're amused, now, instead of upset.
[ The slight edge of sarcasm disappears when he finishes saying that, putting that relieved feeling into words as best he can manage. ]
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[ Blue says that outloud, and when those fingers lace between his, Yzak hears his voice echo in his mind, memory of his words from earlier; you should bind them together. So neither gets lost.
He looks down at their hands thoughtfully. Jeez, what a sappy thing to recall at a moment like this. He feels himself go redder, because even with Blue's psionics down and him unable to read the thought, which would have saved Yzak from the embarrassment, he still essentially causes it for himself anyway. ]
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all the same, he squeezes at Yzak's hand - a silent declaration of those things unsaid.]
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He sends a side glance to Blue when he feels that squeeze to his hand. ]
I hope the tea helped, too...! Was that blend to your liking?
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If I can't, I at least have similar blends back on the station.
[ He doesn't move - if anything, he can at most, perhaps briefly nod off like this, if he gets too comfortable. But in the meantime, he can't help but agree, this is nice. ]
And it's not so much the fact that what you can feel here is so strongly negative that it can cause you such turmoil even in your sleep, but rather that even being free of that temporarily ... is its own form of turmoil in itself. Is that right?
[ So while Yzak assumes Blue would rather not have to deal with losing his sense at all, even briefly, both situations right now seem to have their pros and cons, given what kind of place they're in. ]
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