[ It's funny because if he were being called beautiful he'd probably start to flush and get awkward (trye as it is!), but as it's his one of many many MAAAAAANY talents getting the compliment, he looks proud. Proud but in a specifically special way because it comes from Blue, and it comes from Blue about something that means this great a deal to him.
So he puffs up a bit to ready himself, since this is THE ONE. The important one!! ]
Then, I'll make sure I get this one perfectly right.
[ Spoken like a vow, before he makes sure his chin is set comfy, his focus is on the music since he won't be getting Blue's memory to lead him along, he's gotten it memorized by now ... and then he plays.
And much like the last few practice runs, the echos of the original are there as best as Yzak can mimic them. Of course some of his own feelings come through as well, happy to be able to do this for Blue, getting to see him smile, giving him something special that he hopes he'll cherish. ]
[Blue is on his best behavior - best that he can be when so moved and smitten by what's being done for him. but Yzak's recording it, right? so he has to be quiet and still, not disrupt the melody.
only when the bow leaves the strings and Yzak signals an end does Blue lift his head and move to lean in, hugging him around the waist and nuzzling his cheek before kissing it.]
Thank you. Thank you, Yzak. For bringing something like this...back out of my memories.
[ He brings the violin and the bow down to rest on the bed at his opposite side that Blue's on just as he feels those arms wrap around him. Yzak sits back up so those lips can properly meet his face, and he turns it to look back at Blue when he pulls his head back, still close enough to properly see the appreciation in his eyes. It causes a gentle brush of pink to bloom at the ends of his ears, his own expression entranced in its own way, to be looked at like this. ]
It's the least I can do, since you shared it with me to begin with.
[ ... ]
More than that, too, obviously. [ Much, much more. Even these last couple of days settling in to a slightly-more-than-the-already-constant presence of Blue like this have been no less exciting than the first moment.
And now that it's done, the recording is being quickly transferred to him. ]
[ That draws a calm, fond huff out of him as he returns the kiss. With it comes a wave of nostalgia, warm, painful in ways, grateful... ]
I get it. The importance of something like this. Not long before my arrival here, Athrun obtained the same thing; a recording of one of Nicol's pieces that his parents had.
[ You know what, sure, Yzak or Dearka would have hit Athrun up a couple of days later asking (in Yzak's case, demanding) him to send them said recording. Since that bastard doesn't live close to them anymore. ]
Ah, yeah, actually.
[ He regrabs his violin to properly place it in the case on the floor so he's not leaning over it when he grabs his phone from the bedside table. ]
Of course Athrun originally forgot to send us a copy like he always does - as if we're not busy, too, but we remember when we promise to do things like that! So we had to remind him since that idiot is so absentminded, sometimes. [ A little harrumph - but it's tinged with that loneliness that he always feels back home with Athrun living so far away now. And that he's no longer here on the station with them. ]
[once Yzak's gotten the instrument out of the way and is sitting back with his phone, Blue unwinds his arm from around him, himself sitting back to make room for Yzak to situate as he pleases.]
Yeah, yeah, I guess. [ Translation: Blue is correct and Yzak complaining about Athrun is just what he does and his way of making sure people know he is Important In Yzak's Life. He's just too tsundere to ever say something nice about him because of his horrific envious inferiority complex he has in his presence. That happens when you're a loser with an eternal rival who doesn't even want to be your eternal rival in turn.
He makes a couple of thoughtful humming noises, situating where he's still nice and close and leaning against Blue. (or more, letting Blue lean against him) There are a few taps back and forth between folders and places as he tries to find what he's looking for, and eventually he does.
A piano piece plays; beautiful, haunting but comforting. It comes from someone brimming with talent never fully realized, and someone kind. Extremely kind. Too kind to have been involved in a war but so many felt they had no choice but to fight.
Yzak's own feelings fluctuate when the music begins. Images of a memory of he and Dearka approaching (Yzak stomping toward) Athrun, standing at a grave in a seemingly neverending graveyard. A nostalgic comfort with the meeting there, as if it's something they've done many times before. Athrun noting that he visited Nicol's parents who gifted him with the old recording and playing it for them all. Dearka notes how nice it is, Athrun agrees, Yzak tells them to be quiet and listen. All of those memories and feelings come with a light cocoon of guilt wrapped around them. Guilt for what was because he was so awful back then, especially to Nicol. Regret for what never came to be because he'd died long before Yzak started to get his act together. It's another scar he carries moving forward - one he doesn't try to atone for because he doesn't seek forgiveness since the only one who could grant it is gone - but rather with the hope that no more situations like the one they were in will be repeated. ]
[Blue leans against him as expected, resting his head against Yzak's, and gradually winds his arm through his, fingers sneaking their way to thread together with his. he closes his eyes as he listens, all the color and light coming from the emotions and memories next to him. his heart yearns and aches with Yzak's, not just out of empathy, but out of the resonance of feelings in himself brought on by familiar tones and shades. what's different is all that guilt, and it hurts Blue to feel.
he gently squeezes his hand - paltry consolation, but it is what he can freely give.]
[ That it's any at all means something to him, regardless of who it comes from. But Blue ... he's just always like this, and it's what drew Yzak to him in the first place. That empathy and kindness, that understanding even in spite of the more awful parts that he sees in people. And he ... sure has a lot of those.
His fingers curl back to lock their hands together as the final keys of the melody play and softly fade. And he looks down to those thin fingers laced with his own ... they still fit together so well, he thinks. ]
It is. [ He agrees, it is lovely. It's very fitting of Nicol... even though...
He leans his head back a little to look at the ceiling. ]
Even though while the actual recording is quite old, the memories are more recent.
[ Because as those feelings of guilt imply, he'd never really taken the time to make many good memories with Nicol. There were some in the academy, when he was more just overly ambitious than a complete asshole, but even back then he tended to stick closer to Dearka and focus on his rivalry with Athrun otherwise. ]
[ He exhales. ] Someone like him probably would. Though he'd probably be more appreciative that his music is still being enjoyed, even though he's gone.
Even during what little we got of downtime where we were allowed to return home briefly, Nicol would spend it performing somewhere. I was too busy to make it to any of them. [ That, and he probably only marginally cared compared to other things. ] But Athrun did.
Mmn, it's not. And it does feel far too late, sometimes. [ Diving deeper into those thoughts will only ruin this nice atmosphere, though, because it would just be him thinking about the fact that even though he's doing so now, he didn't when it counted, when it was more important. When he was still alive. Still... ] But, I get what you mean.
... And, I appreciate it.
[ A thought he has first before deciding to speak it aloud to Blue. ]
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So he puffs up a bit to ready himself, since this is THE ONE. The important one!! ]
Then, I'll make sure I get this one perfectly right.
[ Spoken like a vow, before he makes sure his chin is set comfy, his focus is on the music since he won't be getting Blue's memory to lead him along, he's gotten it memorized by now ... and then he plays.
And much like the last few practice runs, the echos of the original are there as best as Yzak can mimic them. Of course some of his own feelings come through as well, happy to be able to do this for Blue, getting to see him smile, giving him something special that he hopes he'll cherish. ]
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only when the bow leaves the strings and Yzak signals an end does Blue lift his head and move to lean in, hugging him around the waist and nuzzling his cheek before kissing it.]
Thank you. Thank you, Yzak. For bringing something like this...back out of my memories.
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It's the least I can do, since you shared it with me to begin with.
[ ... ]
More than that, too, obviously. [ Much, much more. Even these last couple of days settling in to a slightly-more-than-the-already-constant presence of Blue like this have been no less exciting than the first moment.
And now that it's done, the recording is being quickly transferred to him. ]
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It means a lot to me. I'll remember this moment happily.
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I get it. The importance of something like this. Not long before my arrival here, Athrun obtained the same thing; a recording of one of Nicol's pieces that his parents had.
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Ah, yeah, actually.
[ He regrabs his violin to properly place it in the case on the floor so he's not leaning over it when he grabs his phone from the bedside table. ]
Of course Athrun originally forgot to send us a copy like he always does - as if we're not busy, too, but we remember when we promise to do things like that! So we had to remind him since that idiot is so absentminded, sometimes. [ A little harrumph - but it's tinged with that loneliness that he always feels back home with Athrun living so far away now. And that he's no longer here on the station with them. ]
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It's alright. It's still here, in the end.
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He makes a couple of thoughtful humming noises, situating where he's still nice and close and leaning against Blue. (or more, letting Blue lean against him) There are a few taps back and forth between folders and places as he tries to find what he's looking for, and eventually he does.
A piano piece plays; beautiful, haunting but comforting. It comes from someone brimming with talent never fully realized, and someone kind. Extremely kind. Too kind to have been involved in a war but so many felt they had no choice but to fight.
Yzak's own feelings fluctuate when the music begins. Images of a memory of he and Dearka approaching (Yzak stomping toward) Athrun, standing at a grave in a seemingly neverending graveyard. A nostalgic comfort with the meeting there, as if it's something they've done many times before. Athrun noting that he visited Nicol's parents who gifted him with the old recording and playing it for them all. Dearka notes how nice it is, Athrun agrees, Yzak tells them to be quiet and listen. All of those memories and feelings come with a light cocoon of guilt wrapped around them. Guilt for what was because he was so awful back then, especially to Nicol. Regret for what never came to be because he'd died long before Yzak started to get his act together. It's another scar he carries moving forward - one he doesn't try to atone for because he doesn't seek forgiveness since the only one who could grant it is gone - but rather with the hope that no more situations like the one they were in will be repeated. ]
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he gently squeezes his hand - paltry consolation, but it is what he can freely give.]
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His fingers curl back to lock their hands together as the final keys of the melody play and softly fade. And he looks down to those thin fingers laced with his own ... they still fit together so well, he thinks. ]
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He leans his head back a little to look at the ceiling. ]
Even though while the actual recording is quite old, the memories are more recent.
[ Because as those feelings of guilt imply, he'd never really taken the time to make many good memories with Nicol. There were some in the academy, when he was more just overly ambitious than a complete asshole, but even back then he tended to stick closer to Dearka and focus on his rivalry with Athrun otherwise. ]
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after a thoughtful pause:] I imagine the creator...would be very pleased. To know they're being thought of, even now.
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Even during what little we got of downtime where we were allowed to return home briefly, Nicol would spend it performing somewhere. I was too busy to make it to any of them. [ That, and he probably only marginally cared compared to other things. ] But Athrun did.
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You're making time...right now. It's not the same, but...
[but somehow, Blue believes that being remembered is just as valuable in its own right as being present. he has to believe that.]
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... And, I appreciate it.
[ A thought he has first before deciding to speak it aloud to Blue. ]